Welcome to what I suspect is a very large club, Iva.
As I was reading along I was thinking “She talked”. That’s what slammed the door in my face; although I went to my Mom’s funeral knowing full well I would be snubbed. And I was. Roundly.
And I’m glad I went. I have one grown niece with whom I stay in touch peripherally. The rest, my god, I hope they find a way to some kind of peace.
Fwiw, someone heard you and heard me and it resonated even if they can’t say anything. Thanks for speaking up in your life and here.